DaFruits of My Testimony.(Exposing the spirit of lust).❤️

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We must stop trying to hide our sins from God, for He sees and knows all.

We must expose our sins, and how do we do that?
We expose our sins by being open with The King.
We must be open with God about our struggles, about our challenges, about our addictions for He alone heals and delivers.

The Lord took me to this scripture today.

I know Ephraim, And Israel is not hidden from Me; For now, O Ephraim, you commit harlotry; Israel is defiled. Hosea 5:3

“They do not direct their deeds Toward turning to their God, For the spirit of harlotry is in their midst, And they do not know the Lord. Hosea 5:4

The pride of Israel testifies to his face; Therefore Israel and Ephraim stumble in their iniquity; Judah also stumbles with them. Hosea 5:5

I will return again to My place Till they acknowledge their offense. Then they will seek My face;
In their affliction they will earnestly seek Me.” Hosea 5:15

As I share with you this morning I share according to His leading, and His leading alone.
I will not share anything that He does not permit me to.

Before The Lord revealed to me this particular scripture, to share this morning.
He told me that I would need to share my testimony.
I told Him that I have already written it down, and that it is so long should I really share through twitter or just through my blog?
I told Him to lead me to a Word that would confirm what He just said and then He led me to that scripture.
So I knew that that’s what The Lord wanted to address this morning exposing the spirit of sin, specifically the spirit of lust.

For many years I struggled with the spirit of lust.
I struggled with this spirit from as long as I can even remember.

Like Ephraim and Israel I hid my sin, I tried to hide my sin from God, from family, and friends.
I was unable to overcome the sexual desire of masturbation, which later grew into a pornography addiction.

Being young and female I fought this battle alone.
I believed I was the only one going through this, and I did not want anyone to know.
I tried to fight this battle alone but being a growing Christian I had no idea how to.
I fought according to my own strength which always led me to a dead end.

I cannot vividly remember how this spirit came upon me but it stuck with me for a very long time.
I would feel sexually aroused and as a child I obviously had no idea of what spiritual attacks were.
I grew up in the Catholic Church so I cannot remember hearing much messages on this.
I accepted this spirit, I accepted it because it felt good, and it became apart of me, apart of my childhood.

Masturbation is the topic that the church does not so often talk about.
Masturbation is a topic that I longed to hear being discussed in the church because I felt that I was the only one, the only female, the only child, who was going through this, I felt abnormal.
Yes honestly I felt abnormal, why couldn’t I be like every other kid?
I couldn’t imagine any other kid having to go through this, I wished I went through something else, I wished my battle was different.

Even as a child I loved The Lord and even though I did not know the name of what I was doing until I was around eleven or twelve years old,
I knew it was wrong because I hid this sin for many years, I hid it and covered it up.
It was almost like my baby, I gave birth to sin and I protected it from being exposed.
Though I hid this sin and covered it up it is not until I started attending a Pentecostal church, that I began to feel guilty of secretly committing this sin.

I tried to break away from sin,
but I was still enslaved to sin.
My relationship with God grew but I still was unable to break free from this addiction.
The enemy made me believe for a long time that I could not break free from his chains,
satan made me believe for a long time that I could try but I would end up being back in the same place again.
satan often deceived me into believing that my sin was ‘ok’,
that I could just play with repentance, and go back to sin after all ‘God understands’,
but just because ‘God understands’ does not mean it’s ‘ok’ to sin, and just because God understands does not mean it’s ok to stay in sin.
Just because He loves us does not mean we are supposed to stay sin.
God Loves Righteousness and not sin.

Do not be deceived by the outward appearance of sin,it may seem pleasing to the eye but really sin is like a snake, it bites, poisons and kills.
I played this game of ‘sin, repent, God understands’ for a long time and I only ended up digging myself into a deeper hole of addiction.
I tried with my own strength it did not work.
I confided in people who had gone or were still going through the same thing as me.

At the time I thought that masturbation was something that men mostly did, so I still thought I must have been the only female in the world committing this sin lol so I was still discouraged, and I thought I was abnormal.
After all I had never heard any female sharing their testimonies on masturbation.

Until to my surprise I met a lady on this forum from across the pond who was going through the same thing.
It was just encouraging to know that I was not the only female in the world struggling with masturbation.
At the age of fourteen I told this lady that I would write a book on this to encourage people who have struggled with this sin.
I had not even overcome this sin yet but I told her that I would write a book.
I continued to confide in this lady, however she had not overcome this sin either, and as a growing Christian I really longed to hear from someone who had overcome this battle.

satan had a strong hold on me, and I had the urge to continue sinning.
I fed the flesh so much with this sin, that I weakened the Holy Spirit within me, I grieved the Holy Spirit.
The more I tasted sin the more I hurt the Holy Spirit and I hurt myself.
The Holy Spirit hates sin and cannot live within it.
So when I tried to overcome my flesh, I couldn’t because I was not feeding the Holy Spirit.
I did not know The Word of God as much as I do now, I was perishing for lack of knowledge, His Spirit was not being strengthened within me.
I had not really tasted The Word of God, so I did not know of His goodness.
I just kept tasting sin I kept being deceived into believing that sin tastes good when really it never did satisfy, and always left me hungering for more.

God never lets His children go hungry nor begging for bread.

I have been young, and now am old; Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, Nor his descendants begging bread. Psalms 37:25

The lord will not let the godly go hungry, but he refuses to satisfy the craving of the wicked. Proverbs 10:3

He fills the emptiness.
He overcomes darkness with His light.
He restores, He revives, and He refreshes.

I wanted others to share their testimonies on this to encourage me yet I did not want to share my own encounter.
I became frustrated and sometimes I would just want to give up.
What was the point I thought to myself.
I’m really trying, I really want to break free, why me, why me? I kept asking myself, feeling self pity for myself anytime I would end back in the same place of hopelessness.
The problem was I didn’t really want to give up on this sin, I just wasn’t ready.
It was going to take more than just simply trying with my own strength.
It was going to take fasting, praying, and guarding my heart.

So I tried prayer and fasting, and guarding my heart, guarding my eyes, guarding my ears, and the enemy left me alone for a while,
but then he would come to strike me with his sword of sin again.
Anytime I was left alone, anytime I was bored, anytime I felt like just a bit of fun, satan would sow seeds of sin into my heart, my mind, and spirit. satan would place these lustful seeds into me and I’d wake up feeling like something strange had taken place, like he had just abused me.
Yes I am a virgin but the enemy had tried to take away my innocence spiritually.
Sometimes I would just fall asleep during the day, and then feel aroused, wake up and wonder what on earth had taken place.
This began to happen when I became serious with sharing God’s Word, praying, and fasting.
So why was I still being attacked?
What more did I need to do?

The enemy began to try different things when I became adamant on sharing The Word of God.
satan knew that this was the will of God for my life and he did try to destroy it.
I wasn’t committing this sin as much as when I was as a kid and in my early teenage years, and this frustrated satan.
So he really did try to distract me with the spirit of lust, he really did try to cause me to fail, but it did not work because no weapon formed against me shall prosper!
satan tried to poison my mind with all sorts of poisonous lustful garbage, he tried to deceive me into being what he wanted me to be,
so that I would not be the woman that God is using today, a mighty vessel for His glory.
Oh how the enemy has tried but oh how he has failed.

I battled with this spirit at the age of six/seven, and completely overcame this battle at the end of last year 2013.

Believe me when I say that if God almighty could do it for me, He can most certainly do it for you.
For nothing, absolutely nothing is too difficult for Him!
I am free!
He has taken away my shame and pain, I am no longer guilty!
I refuse to turn back, I share this message with you with no condemnation.
His Word delivered me.

For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

His Word encouraged me, His Word empowered me to share to overcome this battle and share this testimony with you!
Someone might ask why did it take me so long to share?
Well the truth is I really wanted to.
The Lord convicted me to share in April when He shared His messages through me on The Cup of Suffering, and Sacrificial Service.
So I shared with my family in May, and it really wasn’t easy but I just had to.
I had the intention of sharing with you straight after I had shared with them but I was told not to for now.
But I couldn’t hold on to this any longer, and as the Holy Spirit prompted me this morning I just had to obey and share.

He is mighty to save, and I am more than a conqueror.

Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:37

Because I am more than a conqueror I continue to use the weapons of warfare that God has given me to use against the works of the enemy!
I can identify with who my enemy is, I know my enemy is the spirit of lust and so I literally flee from temptation,
I guard my heart from those lustful based relationships, I guard my mind from lustful imaginations,
I guard my tongue from lustful conversations, I guard my ears from listening to lustful conversations or music, I guard my eyes from lustful images, and films.I rebuke anything that the enemy tries to place into my very being.

I am not ignorant, I know that I am in the world and satan is the prince of this world.
I know that the media is controlled by the evil works of satan, but I refuse to give in to temptation.

Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. Matthew 4:1

And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, afterward He was hungry. Matthew 4:2

Now when the tempter came to Him, he said, “If You are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread.” Matthew 4:3

But He answered and said, “It is written, ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.’ ” Matthew 4:4

Then the devil took Him up into the holy city, set Him on the pinnacle of the temple, Matthew 4:5

and said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down. For it is written: ‘He shall give His angels charge over you,’ and, ‘In their hands they shall bear you up, Lest you dash your foot against a stone.’ ” Matthew 4:6

Jesus said to him, “It is written again, ‘You shall not tempt the Lord your God.’ ” Matthew 4:7

Again, the devil took Him up on an exceedingly high mountain, and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory. Matthew 4:8

And he said to Him, “All these things I will give You if You will fall down and worship me.” Matthew 4:9

Then Jesus said to him, “Away with you, Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve.’ ” Matthew 4:10

Then the devil left Him, and behold, angels came and ministered to Him. Matthew 4:11

satan can try to tempt me like he did when he tried to tempt Jesus but because of the very Word of God I know that satan has no power over me and it is by The very Word of God, fasting, prayer, and the guarding of my heart that I use to destroy the works of the enemy.
satan comes at your weakest point.
I know his tricks, you must know your enemy.
satan uses the same old tricks over and over again.
I refuse to be used by him, I refuse to be a fool for satan.
So satan can try like he always used to but I am no longer afraid, for he will continue to fail.
satan cannot deceive this woman of God any longer.

Once you resist the temptations of satan, once you overcome sin, you will be able to walk in what The Lord has called you to do!

Jesus began his Galilean ministry once He had resisted and overcome the temptations of satan.

The people who sat in darkness have seen a great light, And upon those who sat in the region and shadow of death Light has dawned.” Matthew 4:16

From that time Jesus began to preach and to say, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.” Matthew 4:17

For those that go into debates about masturbation and pornography not being a sin.
I refuse to go into such debates.
I know and believe that masturbation and pornography are sins.
Lust is sin.
Sex before marriage is sin with or without a partner.
Lusting after another man or woman Jesus states as His new commandment as sin and equally the same as committing adultery.

I encourage you to share what you are going through with a brother or sister rooted in Christ.
Do not and I repeat do not share what you are going through with just anyone.
If you cannot find anyone that is rooted in Christ to share what you are going through with then just go to the Father.
God is the best person to Man to confide in anyway.
All you need to do is be open with Him.
A problem shared is a problem halved.
One chases thousands but two chases tens of thousands there is power in unity.

I guess what I really want to get out of this the most is for Christians to be honest with each other.
For Christians to open up to one another.
For Christians to encourage one another, not to criticise, mock, or be scornful, no that is of a religious nature.
We must begin to follow the nature of Christ He is love.

Jesus never condemns, but always convicts.
He convicts us to change to become more like Him, not more like the world, becoming more like the world is of satan.
Jesus says come as you are but you cannot stay as you are.
I encourage Christians to share their testimonies or encounters more often, you just don’t know how many people will be saved, healed, and delivered, through YOUR testimonies.

I was encouraged through His very Word, and He spoke through people to get me to share my testimony, and I just had to do it, I just had to trust and obey Him simply because it is His will.

Feel free to share with me your experiences, feel free to ask for prayers, but what I really desire and I believe is God’s heart desire is for Christians to be openly honest, and to share from both the old and the new testament of their lives.

‘Grace concealed in the Old Testament is revealed in the New Testament.’
St Aguastine.

I guess that’s why I have such a passion for both the Old and the New Testament.
If it was not for the old I would not have travelled into the new.

‘This grace hid itself under a veil in the Old Testament but has been revealed in the New.’

According to the perfectly predestined will of God.
Jesus tore the veil, He made a way, when He said that It Is Finished, It Is Done.
Oh how I love Jesus because He first loved me.
There is now no condemnation because old things have passed away and have become new!

Therefore, from now on, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him thus no longer.
II Corinthians 5:16

I shared this with you according to His will, I live in His story and with Him I am able to complete every chapter. Amen, and God bless you.😊❤️🙌

18 thoughts on “DaFruits of My Testimony.(Exposing the spirit of lust).❤️

  1. Powerful testimony. Is it possible to summarise this testimony and email it to your_testimony@aol.co.uk. I am trying to form a blog that mainly displays testimonies. Something like this will touch a lot of people as it is a topic that hardly spoken about.
    I would be so grateful of you take time out and help a sister out. The post will have a link that leads to this post…so there’s no plagiarism.

    Please spread the Word. #Excited #AlternateWayToSpreadTheWord

    Thank you soo much.

    1. Good morning sis thanks so much for reading, and I give God all the glory.
      Thank God, I have been thinking of a way to share this testimony to encourage more people and what you are doing is exactly what The Lord placed on my heart.
      I will definitely summarise and send it to you.
      God bless you 😊

  2. Hi, in the past I struggled with the same thing. Though 4 years ago I properly gave my life to Jesus and he has set me free from the addiction. However this past year I’ve been feeling a lot of guilt and almost fear about whether or not I should tell people about it in my testimony. I never include that part because I keep saying to myself that God remembers my sins no more and there’s no need to bring them up again.

    I worry because it would obviously change my families percetion of me and friends. Though i know sharing could help others. However i still think God will work anyway.

    But is it a sin for me to keep my past list sin between just God and I? And will I only find full peace when I let it go and tell others?

    I am changed and redeemed I’m just scared to tell others about this and is it necessary?

    Thanks and thankyou for sharing yours.

  3. Hi, in the past I struggled with the same thing. Though 4 years ago I properly gave my life to Jesus and he has set me free from the addiction. However this past year I’ve been feeling a lot of guilt and almost fear about whether or not I should tell people about it in my testimony. I never include that part because I keep saying to myself that God remembers my sins no more and there’s no need to bring them up again.

    I worry because it would obviously change my families percetion of me and friends. Though i know sharing could help others. However i still think God will work anyway.

    But is it a sin for me to keep my past list sin between just God and I? And will I only find full peace when I let it go and tell others?

    I am changed and redeemed I’m just scared to tell others about this and is it necessary?

    Thanks and thankyou for sharing yours.

    1. Hi it’s true that He remembers our sins no more when we repent.
      What I would ask you is what is God telling you to do?
      That’s very important.
      I was struggling for many years, and I had wanted to speak out about it for some time but it wasn’t the right time.
      When I overcame I had kept it to myself for a while, but The Lord kept prompting me to share and my gosh that was not easy I even cried but I knew I had to.
      He led me and that’s important and eventually I obeyed.
      I had always wanted a woman to share her testimony concerning because I honestly believed I was the only one and it made me feel abnormal honestly.
      So take that into consideration, your testimony is sure to set somebody free.
      It encourages as well it helps that person who is struggling to know that they are not the only one, and that there is hope.
      I feel that The Lord is prompting you to share, but at His appointed time.
      As long as He is giving you the go ahead then go for it.
      It’s not easy, it’s a sensitive subject but God will give you the boldness to speak out.
      You’d even be surprised when you share your testimony the amount of people that will open up to, I’m telling you it will be the people that you least expect.
      Don’t be ashamed, or afraid.
      Let God lead you, listen, and trust His appointed time.
      God bless

      1. Thankyou for your reply. I am really scared.
        Pray for me that I will do whatever God’s will is.

        I don’t want to tell my family because I don’t want to dissapoint them and make their perception of me change. But at the same time I’m scared to dissobey God in this in case he punishes me or turns away from me because I do love Him. That’s the only reason I would ever even consider telling others about my past sins.

        Thanks again.

      2. I’ll pray for you.
        Let the Holy Spirit lead you.
        Do what He is telling you do, it’s not easy but it is worth it.
        Remember who The Son has set free is free indeed, and there is now no condemnation in Christ Jesus.
        You need not be ashamed of your testimony, after all our lives are living testimonies.

        Can you read my posts please search DaFruits of The Cup of Suffering, and DaFruits of Sacrificial Service.
        It’s actually what gave me the boldness to share and testify of His goodness.
        The Lord kept prompting me, and I knew I had to and I obeyed.
        It’s only because He led me at that time though.
        God bless😊🙏

  4. Thank you for sharing. I’m also battling against the spirit of lust. I finally got the courage to talk to my pastor and they advised me to get stronger in the lord and will do a deliverance prayer for me. I didn’t tell them anything yet.

    1. So sorry for the late reply.
      It is not easy to share but it definitely helped, and thank God you confided in your pastor, no one should suffer in silence and with God all things are possible.

  5. Hello! I read your testimony and it’s definitely something I’m going through on and off.Its a hard topic to discuss especially when you may not have the right ppl around to express yourself honestly. I’m just tired of going through the same ole thing.repenting and then disappointing God later you know? I believe watching certain shows definitely trigger me to masturbate but it’s difficult when you are use to certain entertainment.I want to quit for good and truly repent and renew my spirit.I want to thank you for sharing and giving me the courage to at least seek advice it’s not easy for me because for some reason I always feel rejected or maybe I’m only suppose to talk to anyone but God. God Bless you

    1. Hi so sorry for the late reply!
      I agree that this is a very sensitive topic, and was something that I could not share until my relationship with God strengthened, and that being said I only shared with people that the Holy Spirit led me to share with, until He said now is the time to speak out and expose this spirit. I can so relate to your disappointment. I definitely would advise you to let go of the things that are caging you, you have to be very careful of the things that you watch, listen to. There is so much evil in the media, even around us and I am not going to lie to you there are things that will pop up that we don’t even want to see, but it starts with you first turning away from those programmes, and spending more time with God in prayer, and in His Word and that is when His fire will give you the power to walk in purity. Let me tell you sis, it is a journey and it starts with you really desiring a change. Do not be hard on yourself, I struggled for so many years with pornography I hated it, and the enemy will make you feel so guilty to the point where I always felt I could not repent, but sis you need to repent! Now is the time to turn away from it though sis and that is true repentace, and it will be step by step, but please let go of the programmes and everything else that is leading you astray, and the next thing to do would be to pray, seek God, fast, be led by the spirit, fellowship, surround yourself with Godly friends.

  6. The Lord Jesus Christ delivered me from lust this day 09/04/2016,i struggled for nearly thirty years with this demonic spirit of lust but there is deliverance through the Son of the Living God

    1. Wow! Praise God it is very much possible to overcome through the power of Jesus Christ!
      God bless you, and may He continue to strengthen you, remember that the enemy still tries, he prowls around seeking whom to devour like a roaring lion, so please be watchful and prayerful. Remember you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.

  7. I have been struggling with lust for a long time. It first started with an addiction to pornography and prompted masturbation from there. It started back when I was around 13 or 14 years old. I am 25 now and still battle with masturbation although I am free from porn. I started fasting and praying and becoming open with God about my struggle. I was raised Charismatic but have been Pentecostal since 2011. At one point I got so desperate to break free that I went on a three day fast and stayed in my room and didn’t come out for three days just seeking God. A few months later God baptized me with the Holy Ghost and I was empowered with His Spirit but still struggled with masturbation. It seemed like it didn’t matter how much I prayed through I would always end up masturbating in my sleep. I have lost the anointing but am pursuing it again and feel that I need more of the Word to truly change this behavior that I struggle with. It is so discouraging when it took so long just to break through to have to do it all over again. Please pray for me. Sometimes I watch or hear about people who were delivered just like that from alcoholism or other things and think why can’t that be me. Why do I have to go through so much fasting and oraying and seeking and they get delivered with one prayer. I have fought long and hard about confiding with my Pastor but fear what will happen. However, I feel it is necessary because I can’t seem to get total deliverance. I am an usher at my church and run media sometimes. I am contrmplating telling my Pastor I want to step down because I feel like I have done everything wrong and that’s why I can’t seem to get total victory. I didn’t even have the intention of being an usher. I was asked to and because I was willing I said yes because I was willing to. I should have said no but I didn’t want to have to explain to them why. I came to that church to find deliverance and now I feel trapped with this position. I feel like even if I had the Holy Ghost that I would.need to step down first just to be right with God. I just want to be a genuine Christian and feel that I obtained the position of usher the wrong way. I should have just said no until I dealt with the sin in my life. Please pray for me that God will give me courage to do what is right.

    1. My dear friend in life everyone struggles with one sin or the other. Even the the writer of Hebrews 12:1-2 talked about the sin that we as human easily fall prey to. You remember bro Paul said the things he would love to do, he’s not doing that.
      It’s not just you, everyone struggles. But what makes the difference is how fast you get back up and how well you try and raise above the situation. Study the situation see where you erred. Look at what caused you to err. It might be music or movies or pictures. Then take corrective and also preventive measures to avoid that. Yes you might have been doing these things but to no avail. This time make a covenant with your eyes, mouth and ears
      That you will speak the right words at the right time and also you will listen to edifying musics and watch Godly videos. Avoid anything that will not edify. Even your friends, watch your circle they may be adding to your problems. Are they really perfecting holiness in the fear of God? What kind of conversation are you and your friends having with the opposite sex?. These are the questions you must ask yourself. Like I said and will always repeat it. Everyone struggles with one sin or the other. But Grace is sufficient to help and to keep us holy. Come boldly to the throne of grace there you will obtain mercy and find grace in times of need.
      Go to a man of God for leadership and guidance. Pray to God to lead you on that. It is very important to have the right person advising and looking after you.
      Pray earnestly even when you are having those funny thoughts and imagination. Bring every thought to the subjection and obedience of Christ.
      You can do. Keep pressing on. Forget the past don’t dwell there. It is gone and by gone. Press towards the mark for the prize of Purity.
      Finally my dear fiend remember Purity>Lust
      Note: your self conviction shows you are still on track with heaven. God is not judging you. Don’t allow the devil to weigh you down.

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